ThE GuNNerS DrEaM

Its just a flick of second between life and death. But if u don’t die what are u left behind. I can feel a never-ending pain that is coming from dark color of the blue sky but without any rain. Do u still feel. Do you remember the first touch of the leaf under the sun? How soft and touching it was. A small touch moved the two different horizons in the same direction. The smell. First to the bounded world of your own. A different smell. Change is life. But what is the change. Change that thundered your beginning up to the end. You have forgotten every small change in your life. What is the power? I turn to look back where I was. But it was gone. I melt the iron. But I didn’t get the time where I was. Now its just a laughing monk looking at me but nothing to loose and nothing to gain. What is this? Is this a stage where I can ask for something,. Where I can talk to something but what is the end of all these mysteries play. Still I can here that voice that thundered me from top to the bottom. But is there any reflection on the other side of the shadow. Now you are in other world and your soul in other. And the end of this beginning has started.

Let’s not talk about the reality. Le me be in the life of illusions. You always talk about practical. The possibility of life. The real nature. Have you ever realized where you are? Possibility is a fascination of dreams. You told me about the wings but where are the shoulders to carry on. I can fly real high but still feet’s are on the ground. How do you define the sky. I was tought by my teacher to be a man. Live your drams. Where is the dream? There is no battle to fight. Why are you still leaving in the world of fantasy. Let be the real hero. There is no world to return. There is no way but just the only one. Lets walk on this path where there is no place to go. Walk with desperation of breathing. But let’s not think about it. Let it never be divided into two because you are the only one who will realize at the end of the time. Can you play a song for me because I am not sleeping and I am not going anywhere? Let’s continue breathing.

It’s a beautiful day like any other day of life. You see a shining thing from the east. It’s so bright like never before until you have reached this stage of life. Its so beautiful like something inside is smiling without any reason. Why there is a need of touching it. There is something inside. This shine, which is diverting you from every thing and you just want to come closer to this bright light to feel nothing that ever happened. You decide your destiny. You start moving, running, doing wearied things that will take you closer and closer. You have a small cloud inside you for which you have walked so long. Long very long like never before for this hunger. And you fee so happy looking at the shine straight coming on your head. It’s so bright. Like never before. You laugh. You play. You enjoy like unborn child with lot of toys around you. You see there is something wrong. The shine is moving away. You have walked miles and miles. But where you went wrong. Why this shine is moving away. You see it’s becoming dull and dull and vanishing on some other corner of the earth. You start moving again. But you are still behind. And now you have started running but still there is no change. You feel so tired. Out with the energy. You can’t go further. You knee down on the sand. Just looking at the fading shine. Its dark here. You keep on going to get that light. Light of your life. You have walked a lot. Miles and miles. Years and years. Every day you come across that shine but its goes out by the time. You are thundered and shocked to see yourself on the same place where you have started. There is some thing different. You didn’t need any support when you have started and now you have a piece of wood and dark doors of death are welcoming you. You have wasted your whole life running for this shine. The shine, which you decided as your destiny. But now you think was that really my destiny? What is the use of thinking when you have lost your whole time of life? And you will never ever be able to see that shine again. What is your destiny?

A voice or may be a sound attract your attention once it reaches your ear. You see people chanting, playing, dancing and laughing with the glory of happiness on their face like never before. Colors are bright. A trance is in the air. Moving everybody towards unknown doors that never opened before. You stand still. You are not with them but standing on the roadside looking at them with a strange look of curiosity. You want to go with them but there is something that is holding you from behind. You look back. There are no hands. Was that my past. Who was that? Remember when you were young. With unrest feet and with unlimited energy you discovered the new world of your own. Did you stop that time? What happened now? Why have you stopped? And now you stair at the empty road where everybody is gone and just dry leaves move with the flow of unknown wind.

Life ….A mystery in this mysteries world. Involves lot of things, emotions, feelings, opportunities, struggle, memories and many more. Why a bird has to fight for his whole life for food? What have you got after working, talking, making fun, laughing, and crying in a normal day? The time is running out of your hands like water. Why water? Why not anything else, Is this also a part of desires of human. Have you ever tried to think beyond the emotions, beyond the struggle, beyond the desires? What have you got? Where are you heading to. Do they still laugh with you? play with you as they were when you were a little life with no boundaries of thinking. With no horizon of hunger. The world was so small to your limitations just like a walk to the candy shop. And again, here comes the same time reminding of all those small starts, but towards the ending. Where is the difference? Everybody was happy that time and now, you don’t have any hand to help you in your slow walk. You have a piece of wood that will take you towards some more woods where you will end up this mystery with flames in the sky. Do you know where have you gone? Did you touch circumference of the circle?

Open your eyes. What do u see. Do u see a life. Do you understand the silence? Have u ever thought of how precious u r? You are coming through the green fields, the blue sky. Enjoying every movement spreading happiness everywhere. Have you ever thought that somebody is looking for you? Waiting from the endless time just to see black clouds over the head. The expectations are very high. May be this time you have something for me. May be you are left out with some old rusted metal. The end is near. I am nobodies home. Not even the hungry vultures. This is only you who can make me feel a little nice. Make me feel that I do sustain. All dreams are lost in the salience. Will that day come when you will have something for me? Will you be able to fulfill my hunger that I have from the beginning. When will you heal my wounds? Ohhhh dear rain when will you come?. When will you come?